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To be able to see some guy that you really like, but not being able to feel or smell or even touch him is not something good – even though you get to see him. It’s hell. And I wouldn’t wish it upon anybody, not even my greatest enemies. This feeling I go through every single day even though no one really notices it. Even though I don’t really notice it myself I know I go through it because when the day finally comes when I have to cry myself to sleep for feeling all alone even though I’m being loved by a lot of people. I feel kind of alone, my brother is being mean to me but he hasn’t really been mean for a while now, not since I told him how I felt about him giving me mean comments or comments he didn’t really had to say.

Well, enough about me, I should talk about happy things, things that happened today or yesterday… Something happy… Now let’s see, what happened today? Well, I woke up and started school, not so happy about that, I’m doing some pretty hard stuff in school right now, stuff I didn’t even know I would ever read about. Nothing more than that really, I went to the market with my mother, it was fun, I bought a new brush – but it was to hot out to stay there any longer.

Kit – Philips and my friend here in Thailand came over and we took her car and drove to Kata beach. Where we parked the car and left for the bar at the end of the beach. It wasn’t so much people there and that was kind of nice, it’s a red flag out today – has been all week, it means that you can’t be swimming in the sea because of the waves and the underwater stuff. Anyway I took a coke, Philip a sprite and Kit a drink… San mig I think it was, or something like that. We talked and had fun, really fun! After a few drinks we headed back to the car but we took a longer way this time – not the beach way. Kit and I talked and saw lots of cute guys, which really makes you realise that you would like to have one of those yourself.

We took some ice chocolate at Andaman coffee shop, it was good but I felt like throwing up after it, I was so full!

We drove back to 2Gether – where we are staying for two weeks because we are renting out our house to some nice Swedish people.

When we got back I saw our neighbours here at 2Gether and I quickly desided that we should stay and have a drink and just look at the two cute guys that we has as neighbours. We did and we sat there for a while, drinking, talking, laughing and Philip almost fell asleep because all Kit and I were talking about were boys – no fun for Philip.

The time flew bye since we had so fun so time to go to bed. Or to the computer and watch a movie.

I watched the movie Atonement, it’s a great movie, weird love movie but great! After seeing it I realised that I would do anything to have what they had… ANYTHING!

Well, school tomorrow and time for bed. Good night! And by the way, thanks for reading and listening to my boring life story or what ever you should call it :-).